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As I realize some of the hardship that I go through, I also realize that many of them aren’t new. I don’t have a perfect track record, nor am I perfect. I have made plenty of mistakes and wrong decisions in my life. And being on the missions field, has helped me see many of these bad choices in my life. Being “in the middle” I’ve been reminded of a few:
1) It’s hard to stay in one place! – When the pressure is turned on and things get hard, it sometimes is easier just to move. Go somewhere new and start over again. It’s easier to blame the place and people your around than to blame yourself. I am all for making sure you are in the right place and doing the right thing but make sure your not just running from hard work! I know this from experience, I went to several different high-schools, colleges, and had many jobs. When I moved to GA, I realized I was here-and-there but never really going anywhere. I decided it was time to grow up, make some tough decisions, and work hard.
2) It’s easy to keep starting, but hard to finish! – There is something refreshing about starting over again. Starting fresh is, well, refreshing! But when you constantly are starting over and never finishing anything, there is a problem. It is hard to endure until the end. I was always the guy that liked to start a task, take of running with it and then after 2/5 of the way through realize this is hard. I used to run track and run the 100 meter hurdles. I was used to running short distances and as fast as possible. Then I was asked to run the 400 meter relay, and I ran the same way that I ran the 100 meters. The first 300 meters I led but the last 100 meters my legs started to feel like jello and everyone passed me up before I could pass off the baton.
3) There are no parties in the middle! – People celebrate the starting of things and the finishing of things. People are exciting at the beginning and the end. But nobody throws a party for being in the middle or getting the job halfway done. It’s just hard work in the middle, no party, no celebrations, just keep moving forward.
Besides these laziness and weaknesses show up! They have always been there but it is easier to give in to them when your “in the middle.” I often need to ask myself “Am I as hard-working as I think I am?”
The good thing about being “in the middle” is that there is a greater dependence on God realized. I often see my lack of ability as a missionary. I know my failures and walks through the valley. But when I am at my lowest, I cling to Him. I turn to Him. I trust Him. I buckle trying to carry the weight of the task in my strength, but move forward when His strength carries me through. I don’t know everything, but I do know HIM! I know He is faithful and unchanging! I know I need to rely on and trust Him!